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Category: Suffering

Pain is inevitable; Suffering is a choice, no matter how hard it may seem.

Expired 4/22/25

May 14, 2025May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment



How fourteen years can change everything.
Just like my passport, I’ve expired- I’m done.
The dull sinking darkness in my heart is settled.
The vapid void of joy is instilled deep in my soul.
Nestled within my being is a shame I can’t shake...

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Reluctant Nurse – 5/14/25

May 14, 2025December 14, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

“Not again,” she cried under her depleting breath.
The iPhone app had ordered 1.75 Liters of rum,
an accustomed daily dose for his sour stomach.
A staggering agitation and terror submerged in his heart
as he looked back at her moist eyes and sunken figure.
Couldn’t she see his skin and bones hungered for it-
no- demanded it.
Exhausted Woman

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Protected: Behind My Fingers [REBOOT]

December 13, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

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I Let Myself [Video]

September 24, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

I wish I hadn't done that.

I let myself feel passion,
unknowingly becoming vulnerable.
I let myself feel hope,
unaware it would cause hurt.

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Black Winter [Video]

July 10, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Texas Summer: mosquitos and allergies.

[TEXT]

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Tu Me Connais [Video]

June 30, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

My 7th grade class had meetings on Bullying, but people thought It wasn't affecting me... It hurt.

"What about kids like Drew?
He doesn't care, he smiles and laughs,
Surely he isn't hurt!"
She spoke up against them for me,
"You don't know that!"
They sure know about me now.

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Dry Heaved Hate [Video]

May 30, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

A poem about the night before heading to college, when my friend OD'd on alcohol and his father called me livid.

You don't dream after drinking like this;
Only a black moments falls our mind
To open our eyes to a headache and thirst.

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Memory’s Shadow [Video]

May 28, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

A poem written for my late grandmother and how I always viewed her as my Grandfather's shadow.

He never took notice of the woman
For which the room now grieves.

She was his grandfather's shadow,
The face that smiled behind his smiling eyes
Now puddled behind curved glass.

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Wasteland for Thought

May 24, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Why should it be hard to find
the right words to write?
My words seldom fail me so.

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A Poem for No One

May 22, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ 1 Comment

Inspiration spread thin
I'm spread out in bed again
spreading ink out onto paper.
Photo by Laker on Pexels.com

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Horrible Ghost [Video]

May 15, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

A poem describing the anguish of monotony.

A putrid mist of devilish self-hatred
floating about aimlessly, hungry for
anything and everything to change
what I’m feeling deep inside myself.

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Horrible Ghost

May 14, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

What horrible ghost have I become?
A putrid mist of devilish self-hatred
floating about aimlessly, hungry for
anything and everything to change
what I'm feeling deep inside myself.

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A Brand New Car [Video]

May 1, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Where do I find the energy to get through the day?

How do I become a new car, primed to drive
One hundred thousand miles off the parking lot?
That's the journey I crave.

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I Let Myself

April 28, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

I let myself feel passion,
unknowingly becoming vulnerable.
I let myself feel hope,
unaware it would cause hurt.

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Reality isn’t Broken.

April 18, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Instead of a present mind,
I've settled for a spacey one lately,
always subject to a slight elusive displeasure...
Photo by Francesco Ungaro on Pexels.com

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12/25/2008 – Tu me connais

March 24, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Tu me connais

She spoke up against them for me,
"You don't know that!"
They sure know about me now.

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Nothing. (7/5/18)

February 10, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Nothing I do matters. Nothing will be okay. Nothing. I am nothing.
Nothing

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Stand Up and Fight Back

January 18, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ 1 Comment

Why can't I find the energy to stand up and fight back?
West Oaks Psych Hospital

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Contentment is a Bedtime Story – 2019

November 17, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow ~ Leave a comment

Bedtime Stories

Concrete ripples with wavering streaks
By the reflection of florescent moonlight
Off the pushing surface of Buffalo Creek
On this brisk and heartless Texas night.

Its water may be colder than the air
But at least it’s moving on:
Pushing past the past- unaware
Of the time between dusk and dawn
Or of the earth slashed away
To carve its flowing veins in time…

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A Purpose I Lack

June 26, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

Is that what I am?
An empty sound-space grasping for a tune?

A Purpose I Lack

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Agitation’s Taunting

May 11, 2021May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

It feels so goddamned empty. A fearful sadness disguised as a human being. For someone so intensely motivated by personal relationships, I want nothing more than to be alone.

Agitation's Taunting

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Song Thrush Symphonies

July 27, 2016May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

Song Thrush symphonies chirp and squeak the arrival of dusk,
Their scores sounding to each other through the sable stillness.
My childish cries for heartfelt comfort echo out into the night before me,
Perking the ears and interests of shadows more hungry than friendly-… Continue reading Song Thrush Symphonies

Prolonged Suffering

April 6, 2015May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

That somehow if I prolong my suffering-- if I suffer more-- the world will understand me more thoroughly.

Prolong Suffering

Lost

December 25, 2008May 19, 2025 ~ inspiracyNow

Lost in a day dream,
Old photos and memories,
And times that were sweet.

Consumed by this longing,
For loving or liquor,
Each one soothes my pain.

You know you still hurt me,
Sneak up from behind me,
Don’t bother to change.… Continue reading Lost

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