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Category: Alcoholism/Rehab

The never ending battle for sobriety.

Expired 4/22/25

May 14, 2025May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment



How fourteen years can change everything.
Just like my passport, I’ve expired- I’m done.
The dull sinking darkness in my heart is settled.
The vapid void of joy is instilled deep in my soul.
Nestled within my being is a shame I can’t shake...

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Reluctant Nurse – 5/14/25

May 14, 2025December 14, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

“Not again,” she cried under her depleting breath.
The iPhone app had ordered 1.75 Liters of rum,
an accustomed daily dose for his sour stomach.
A staggering agitation and terror submerged in his heart
as he looked back at her moist eyes and sunken figure.
Couldn’t she see his skin and bones hungered for it-
no- demanded it.
Exhausted Woman

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Five Months of Gratitude [Video]

September 2, 2024May 23, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Reflections on being 6 months sober.

Now I have the chance to look forward to holidays,
weddings, dates, anything else that comes my way.
It brings a cautiously warm smile to my soul.

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Accept Yourself [Video]

August 29, 2024May 22, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Exploring mindful happiness.

Happiness is what remains when you let go of the need for control, and instead accept yourself and the world around you- as it is now, not how it “should be.”

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Cold Currents [Video]

July 20, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Hungover and yet still ready to party.

Autumn's cold currents augment
A tally in negative addition
To the collection of empty cans and capsules
Once poured out in hollow hope of
Contentment, concentration, or completion

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The Luckiest Bunny

May 20, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

...For without her soft, steadfast caring, he would certainly be dead.
Photo by C. Toro on Pexels.com

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Me in Four Words [Video]

April 25, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I have a problem with doing the "right" thing. I procrastinate and do the wrong things,

The voice of reason is constantly silenced...

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Me in Four Words. [w/ Audio]

March 15, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

What is it about “more now” that is so difficult for me to escape?
It's a fly in my ear, an itch I can't reach.
I ner' err' on the side of conservative actions.
It's a voice that won't concede the microphone.

"Me in Four Words" written and read by Drew Willis.

Photo by cottonbro studio on Pexels.com

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4/20/18 – Grinning at the Universe

February 16, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ 1 Comment

I feel like I'm standing on my own two feet, grinning at the universe.
Grinning at the Universe

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Sit and Breathe

January 26, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

If you ever think breathing is boring, jump into the nearest body of water and see how long you can hold your breath before it becomes “interesting” again.
Sit and Breathe
Sit and Breathe

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A Muddy Mess

January 25, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ 2 Comments

Photo by Aleksandar Pasaric on Pexels.com

Old habits await my mind's stalling,
Chemical dependencies crawling at my mouth,
But I sit them out, patiently waiting for
Something- anything- else to fill my time.
One minute at a time, as they say.

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Serenity of Sobriety

January 23, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Sobriety seems so surreal to me. For so many years I was completely convinced I was a lost cause, that I would never see the healthy life that recovery and serenity would offer me.
Photo by Mister Mister on Pexels.com

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(Rehab) – Cenikor Long Term 2 – 2021?

December 22, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ 9 Comments

This too shall pass.
Let it happen.
Make room for the experience and observe it.
Breathe.
COMMUNICATE!

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(Rehab) – Cenikor Long Term 1 – 2021?

December 20, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I am worthy of love.
I am successful.
I am okay.
I can do this
I'll never be more prepared for this moment than now!

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Maybe Carpe Diem

November 21, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

One day at a time, so here's a humble suggestion:
stop writing, turn the page, and pen the words, “To Do.”
Instead of laying back down again, maybe Carpe Diem.

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Five Months of Gratitude

November 20, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment


Now I have the chance to look forward to holidays,
weddings, dates, anything else that comes my way.
It brings a cautiously warm smile to my soul.

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Waging War Against a God

November 3, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

These sights and swellings of emotion are scarcely the landscape I had wished to
find when I put down my last glass of smiling poison,
but they are anything but surprising to behold.
The Breakfast of Fools

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135 Days

October 31, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Four months thirteen days I've been sober.
It seems unfathomable and fictitious- some
Achievement attained by another ambitious Aquarius.
I almost feel I don't deserve the accolades accompanying this feat.
135 Days Sober

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A Prayer for Fortitude

May 15, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

Guide me towards a sober, compassionate life.
Remove the self-pity and despair,
Replace it with care for others.
I can't do this alone but I have to do the work.
Grant me strength and fortitude in this war…

A Prayer for Fortitude

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Success from Darker Places

April 30, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

Success from Darker Places

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A Craven Creature

April 29, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

What could possibly still the falling of the sun?
A Craven Creature

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The Haunting Demon

April 24, 2023May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

Like a demon haunting my every step.
Why can't I be rid of myself?
I am a plague to everyone around me,
A fly in the soup of mankind...
The Haunting Demon

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Another Way to Say Addict

April 27, 2022May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

I have a tremendous history of making plans,
schedules, brainstorms, and intentions for
healthy change, and then never following through.

Can I actually trust myself? I really don't know.
Fear of failure is a cancer that persists inside me.
Is it possible I'm just stumbling on my own feet?
Another Way to Say Addict 1

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Before My Next Breath

February 9, 2022May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

But somehow all this self torture isn't enough to stop me from drinking. I don't even enjoy it anymore. It's like a full-time job that I know will kill me. I call it “maintenance-” just something I have to get done before my next breath.

Before My Next Breath

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Good Morning Sun

September 11, 2011May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

Good Morning Sun

9/11/2011

The sun is rising on a new day;
I’ve yet to lay rest all night.
A house asleep beneath closed shades
quietly shields my blood-shot eyes.

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