11/20/23 - 5:30 PM Five months? Five months alcohol free? I was living in a desolate, disgusting, disordered, disoriented state of being. So much failure followed me for seemingly endless years. It's uncanny. I never thought I'd accomplish this. I couldn't see past my own hands. I couldn't see past the next ten minutes. Now I have the chance to look forward to holidays, weddings, dates, anything else that comes my way. It brings a cautiously warm smile to my soul. Gratitude is what I should be practicing. Well here we go, my gratitude list for today: 1. Breath. 2. Shelter. 3. Food. 4. Sobriety. 5. Family. 6. Victoria. 7. My dogs. 8. Friends. 9. Clothes. 10. The chance to feel empowered and proud again.