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Category: Writing/Journaling

Pen to paper, drawing out memories and desires.

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January 12, 2026January 12, 2026 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

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105+ Poem Video Playlist (YouTube)

May 19, 2025May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

View an embedded youtube video playlist of 105+ original poems performed by myself over the years.

View the whole Youtube Playlist (recommended), click the "next" icon button to move between videos, or push the playlist icon button in the top right to navigate the library of videos.


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Expired 4/22/25

May 14, 2025May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment



How fourteen years can change everything.
Just like my passport, I’ve expired- I’m done.
The dull sinking darkness in my heart is settled.
The vapid void of joy is instilled deep in my soul.
Nestled within my being is a shame I can’t shake...

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Reluctant Nurse – 5/14/25

May 14, 2025December 14, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

“Not again,” she cried under her depleting breath.
The iPhone app had ordered 1.75 Liters of rum,
an accustomed daily dose for his sour stomach.
A staggering agitation and terror submerged in his heart
as he looked back at her moist eyes and sunken figure.
Couldn’t she see his skin and bones hungered for it-
no- demanded it.
Exhausted Woman

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Protected: Behind My Fingers [REBOOT]

December 13, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now

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I Let Myself [Video]

September 24, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I wish I hadn't done that.

I let myself feel passion,
unknowingly becoming vulnerable.
I let myself feel hope,
unaware it would cause hurt.

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Someday, Change [Video]

September 16, 2024May 23, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Waiting for things to get better on their own doesn't work out well.

At what point do I find the answers and ability to
behave like a functioning, respectable member of society?
When do I learn to conquer my daily demons and grow?

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Resistance is Futile [Video]

September 14, 2024May 23, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

No one can escape the passage of time.

Even the most fearful avoidance of the
future’s arrival fails to remove its approach;
resistance is futile.

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Neurofeedback Meditation [Video]

September 10, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Poetic reflections after a neurofeedback session.

Hesitation holds my hands immobile at the lack of planned direction.
Taps from tips of fingers on keys, this new flow of script plays like a
first piano lesson: slow, forced, and without rhythm.

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Five Months of Gratitude [Video]

September 2, 2024May 23, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Reflections on being 6 months sober.

Now I have the chance to look forward to holidays,
weddings, dates, anything else that comes my way.
It brings a cautiously warm smile to my soul.

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Accept Yourself [Video]

August 29, 2024May 22, 2024 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Exploring mindful happiness.

Happiness is what remains when you let go of the need for control, and instead accept yourself and the world around you- as it is now, not how it “should be.”

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Static of Synapse [Video]

August 27, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A poem on mindful observation of self and the present reality.

I think, therefore I am.
Cognition grants reality to forces
Of mortal temperament and the
Senses securing them to this world.
Only reflection can reveal existence’s
Grace in a plane of such material nature,
Eternally crafting external context
For the memoirs of its course…

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Rhyme Zone Dot Com [Video]

August 25, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A silly poem I wrote about hating the confines of using rhymes in poetry.

Creativity strains to push these words,
I fear my muse has gone with the birds,
to fly away and hide from me.
Tell me, God, what’s this blasphemy
that my pen is forced to write in rhyme?
I’d call it childish any other time.

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Numb to Mischief [Video]

August 23, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A poem about memory and longing.

Still.
The faint rattle of a ceiling fan
Fills the air with impatience.
Moments pass at thrice their length,
This calm is begging for calamity,
Or at least some conversation…

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Rhyme Zone Dot Com [Video]

August 15, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I hate rhyming in my poetry.

Creativity strains to push these words,
I fear my muse has gone with the birds,
to fly away and hide from me.
Tell me, God, what’s this blasphemy
that my pen is forced to write in rhyme?
I’d call it childish any other time.

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A Muddy Mess [Video]

August 13, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Longing for a purpose in this life.

Old habits await my mind’s stalling,
Chemical dependencies crawling at my mouth,
But I sit them out, patiently waiting for
Something- anything- else to fill my time. br /> One minute at a time, as they say.

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Legs Wrapped in Blankets [Video]

August 11, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A bored anxious night with insomnia.

Finding a home in the trivial moment,
I sit and accept each thought and second,
each one passing into the next.
So what if frustration graces my mood?

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At Least For Now- Part 2 [Video]

August 9, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Part 2 of "At Least for Now"

So at least for now, I am loved.
At least for now, I am worth it.
At least for now, I can say I'm giving myself a shot.
Words are powerful and so are stories.

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At Least For Now- Part 1 [Video]

August 9, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

Part 1 of "At Least for Now"

So at least for now, I am loved.
At least for now, I am worth it.
At least for now, I can say I'm giving myself a shot.
Words are powerful and so are stories.

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Dwindling Attention [Video]

August 7, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A random journal entry, testing out new microphone set up. I like the audio results but it takes SOOO much more time.

I find the encouraging comments on my videos
very motivating and heartening that in my
meager content I'm still connecting with people.

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A Morning Lullaby [Video]

August 5, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A lullaby I wrote for my insomnia-assed brain.

... make it or give up.
Can all this really be enough?

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A Quiet Blessing [Video]

August 3, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

A brief exercise in senses and meditative silence.

This moment holds a pleasant scene of silent love,
and security shared passively in each other's arns,

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Sit and Breathe [Video]

August 1, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I have to remember to calm the mind and settle on the breath.

I struggle greatly to remain equanimous and centered in life...
but if I have the capacity to sit still and meditate, I have a chance at peace.

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Breathe Now [Video]

July 30, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I need to meditate instead of writing about mindfulness.

It's time to put down the pen and breathe.

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Shut Off the Television [Video]

July 28, 2024May 19, 2025 ~ Inspiracy Now ~ Leave a comment

I can't THINK my way into insight. I can only clear a space for it.

I want to shut off the television and listen to the birds sing.
Maybe then I can find that inner peace I've
been missing all these years stuck in my head.

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