Cultivating compassion. Practicing Mindfulness. Living sober. These are all things I aspire to bring into my daily life. When the moment comes to meditate, I resist and distract. When compassion is needed, I often choose frustration. Why do I still think about drinking after six months sober?
I can read and listen to all the mindfulness lessons I want, Logically compiling a shallow understanding of the concepts, Never putting to practice the suggested meditations. This thought-based analysis of the content will never Lead me to the serenity and insight I desperately seek.
It's a comprehension that can only be attained by experiencing the lessons with an open mind, Putting into action the meditations regularly, Sculpting a beginner's mind one breath at a time.
I have to remember, it's not about doing it RIGHT. It's about noticing what is happening right NOW and accepting it fully with curiosity and patience. There is no wrong moment, feeling, or thought. There is only the personal experience of now.
Stop dismissing the dismissive attitude that arrises in response to your mindless mind. It is within that attitude that knowledge hides, Ready to be found when the time is right and the mind is soft, attentive, and awake.
