My ADHD Meditations

3/7/24 – 11:20 PM

My ADHD looks like I started writing this sentence 7 minutes ago and just now finished. Two minutes later I wrote the period. Where do I go when my mind wanders off to a different page or notebook? I literally just bought something on Amazon. My last to-do list got spread out across the corners of 3 previously used pages. You can imagine what its like when I sit down to meditate. But luckily, success in meditation has nothing to do with focusing well for a long time. In fact, if I could do that already at will, I wouldn’t need to meditate. It’s not about learning to have better focus but instead, it’s about learning when we’ve already become distracted and gently returning back to our intentions. When I become distracted, by definition I’m unaware of it. It wasn’t a choice to get lost on my way to the kitchen, I was interrupted by other thoughts. Mindfulness meditation is the intentional process of noticing when I’ve already lost focus and choosing compassionately to return back to my breath. The fact that I completed writing one paragraph in 50 minutes means I kept coming back despite my distractions.